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Originally posted by Lei_Kuei:
Yea, its a good plan to channel such energy, however it dosent lower ones sex drive, it increases it LOL!Which causes a looping effect, of being more and more creative and more and more in need of sex or masturbation hehe
Yup... And once the cat is out of the bag, all hell breaks loose. It's such a primal, animalistic thing.. I don't know if it's meant to be controlled for too long.
While i was going through one of my abstinence periods, i went to a hindu temple to meditate...
I thought i had just been super wired to think about sex so i left because while there was singing and dancing, one person caught my eye because they were enjoying themselves with the drums a lot but in my mind, all i could see was him vividly f*cking me.
It was weird.. He was just drumming and dancing and singing and having a GREAT time! and me, my aura field was expanded beyond comprehension and i would look away and still see him naked in my mind, with an erection; leaking...
I thought it was inappropriate to have those thoughts there and so i went to get my shoes and when i bend over to put em on and come back up, he was right in my face with a big ol smile saying hi to me. It's as if had teleported because he got to me so quick!
I freaked out! I stuttered and left.
I then tried to stop doing that.. It was almost as if i was going around with sensors that were just solely focused on anything sexual and i think that picking someone up at a temple and then later shagging em might not exactly be a thing that i'd be praised for.
I felt so bad for him.. After i left when he greeted me, he seemed so confused! He was so nice and gentle and had this spirit about him. It was beautiful.
I felt like a demon person and that i'd probably somehow take advantage of him (odd as it sounds). I hadn't been since.